follow the Leader

I don't know if I can do this for another 8 1/2 months. I really really don't like Spencer. I don't like that I have no friends here... I don't like that there's absolutely nothing to do. I don't like that there is hardly anyone my age around here. I've never felt this alone before... It's a terrible, awful feeling. I am truly envious of anyone living on a college campus!! You all have opportunities to make friends... do me a favor- meet someone new today. Because you can. Don't get me wrong.. I could meet new people... but it seems as though anyone near my age in this town either have children or an addiction... or both. I want friends. So bad. I don't want to spend another Friday night by myself...
sorry, I know you all think I'm a complainer anyway... I guess you don't have to read my blog if you don't want to hear what I have to say. I'm not meaning to play the victim, I'm not meaning to make anyone feel sorry for me, just getting my feelings out.