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This week's Made-For-TV-Moment...
Friday night I babysat 2 kids. Ages 9 and 1. Not bad right, well their Great Grandma was there too!!
ohhh my goodness. I think she thought I was a super idiot. She kept like wanting me to only pay attention to the 1 year old. She was like telling me to pick her up, put her down, give her milk, give her cheerios, then she would say mean things about the 9 year old right in front of her. Like, she needs to just lay still and not even move b/c that's distracting for the baby. And if she would just stop having fun the baby might sleep. And getting mad at her for wanting to tlak to me and play with me. Like I was teaching the 9 year old a hand clapping game while teh great grandma was playing with the baby.. .well suddenly the great grandma got upset about that and told me I needed to stop paying attention to the 9 year old because the baby didn't like being left out of it... ahh. and the baby would cry when I left her on the ground so I would pick her up and she would almost fall asleep and the grandma would be like, okay put her down now. So I would and like a minute later the grandma would tell me to pick her back up like... what were you thinking putting her down hahaha... it was a fiasco!!

I've been a little obsessed with this song lately...
so good!!

I love it!!
Minus the whole being alone nearly 24 hours a day... that's a little weird.
My place is great, it's so spacious and I hope that EVERYONE comes to visit! Seriously, I have pizza in the freezer and pop in the fridge.
I'll try to post some pictures on here, if they don't work check out my new facebook album!

I'm sorry that I'm negative
that I push people away
that I'm afraid of losing you as a friend.
I'm sorry that I get angry
that I don't communicate well
that I'm not just like everyone else.
I'm sorry I don't let go of my mom being sick
that I can't get past that she might not live until I get married
that she's my BEST FRIEND in the ENTIRE world!!

I know now that this is why my life is the way it is.
I'm sorry.
Please, forgive, me and give me another chance.
Life doesn't work well without friendships.