follow the Leader

I'm sorry that I'm negative
that I push people away
that I'm afraid of losing you as a friend.
I'm sorry that I get angry
that I don't communicate well
that I'm not just like everyone else.
I'm sorry I don't let go of my mom being sick
that I can't get past that she might not live until I get married
that she's my BEST FRIEND in the ENTIRE world!!

I know now that this is why my life is the way it is.
I'm sorry.
Please, forgive, me and give me another chance.
Life doesn't work well without friendships.