follow the Leader

Rules
1)List as many things as you want to say to people, but never will.
2)Don't say who they are.
3)Never discuss it.
4)Doesn't always have to be bad.

1. I tihnk you're fake
2. I wish you knew how beautiful you are.
3. Sometimes you annoy me.
4. You're lazy, and it makes me SO sad.
5. Jesus is trying to get your attention... please see Him soon.
6. I'm so jealous of you.
7. Being friends with you scares me, so much that I'm afraid not to be friends with you.
8. <3
9. Teach me everything you know, I think you're a genius
10. You know you're intimidating and you use it to your advantage
11. I'm glad it's over.
12. Sometime it'd be nice if you called me first.
13. Grow a pair.
14. I wish there was some way for me to know if the idea I have about you is true.
15. You're the reason why I cry.
16. I can't be myself when I'm with you.
17. Every boy likes you. I hate that.
18. How are you so sweet to everyone, I envy that.
19. Your faith inspires me
20. You will be a terrible mother.
21. I don't like your boyfriend, I just pretent to.
22. I've been keeping the secret you told me...I always will, please remember that you can trust me.
23. You'll always outdo me, I'm getting used to it.
24. Someone warned me about you... I should have listened
25. I wish I could date you. We have so much in comon.
26. There are certain things you do just to annoy me... grow up.
27. You mean the world to me.
28. Without your friendship, I would be truly lost.
29. You've given me hope.
30. I'm not a fool.

today I really started to realize that I'm shy. Not like afraid to talk shy, but I just prefer to listen.
I prefer to have a someone start a conversation and take the lead. I'm not a big fan of being in control of it, or having the spotlight.

Interesting.

Valentine's day. Blah.
one roommate got breakfast in bed, the other got mystery flowers. I got... 4 hours of sleep and a day alone in my office. grand.

I'm being a negative nelly right now, forgive me.
Hopefully I can get over myself long enough to enjoy hanging out with the girls tonight. I need it.

Maybe next year I'll get a valentine.

the end.

Today I'm rearranging my room.
It's quite a task since it definitely wasn't picked up before I started. I don't think I'll ever do that again. I'm not going to have time to finish this afternoon, so I suppose tomorrow after my meetings I can come back home and finish up. This is my busy Wednesday week, and next week is my busy Tuesday week. I kind of like it when things start to pick up a little. It's less boring that way. Not that rearranging my room is boring at all.

Tonight Melissa and I are heading to the OC to dance the night away. It should be fun. :) I really miss that place a lot. I still don't know what I'm going to wear. I know I'll wear jeans and my boots.. but otherwise, I don't know what top I'll wear. I guess I should call someone for advice haha.


as a personal note..
I don't understand myself sometimes. ...I need to work on that.