follow the Leader

I hate feeling so alone. I know that there are people all over, but I really feel so broken down and alone, like there is no one who cares. I know that God is here for me, and that he'll always be my TRUE best friend, but how am I supposed to keep on without people here that I can talk to and trust and go to. It just seems like no one has enough time. I know that there are people who care, and I'm just being picky right now, but I'm so hurt that it's hard not to feel that way. Hmph. I wish my mom was healthy. I feel like once she got sick my entire life turned to crap. I need her, I will truly be alone if I lose her. I think it would be great to skip the country, not tell anyone where I'm going and start over, forget the past, and move on. Why doesn't it work that way?