follow the Leader

wow. Staff training is almost over. Campers come on Sunday.
Holy cow. The JCs are simply wonderful. I love them. I'm still having trouble feeling included. Like I just feel like people don't really want to be around me so sometimes I remove myself because when I'm around no one talks to me. I know I should just stick with it but I don't like to feel awkward and just standing there not included in conversation. No one means for it to happen... it just does. I should be enjoying all this alone time but it's so hard to see people bonding and not feel included in much of that. And it's really hard to like see people that I have been friends with not want to maintain friendships. Like, it's weird because it's almost like well I know we're friends so I'm not going to talk to you much. I'm a firm believer in maintaining friendships as well as making new ones. I know that people don't see things the same way, and that's alright. I'm learning to deal with it. Some of my friends are doing a good job with still wanting to hang out and stuff and I certainly have made new friends who are amazing. On an entirely different note.. I got these 7 spider bites at Riverside on the 26th of May and for the most part they are looking a little better. They still itch pretty bad, but there is one on my right arm that is bruising. Weird. I think my cousin who is a doctor is home this weekend so I might ask her to take a look and see what she thinks. Riverside was amazing though. I love that place so much, and I would love to work there sometime. The people, the place, the atmosphere.. it's all soooo different. I have met some pretty amazing people there who I would love to keep in contact with. I just feel so accepted and welcomed there and I love that feeling a lot. It's fabulous to feel like people want you around and want to get to know you and want to keep in touch with you. Amanda just got here. I love her. Seriously, I'm glad I can be myself with her and Beth. I really really appreciate them and their laughter and kind words. I know that I'm blessed to live with them this summer.
Bah. I should get going we have Share Groups in a few minutes. Much love coming from Okoboji. Come visit, send me mail... whatever.