follow the Leader

It's been rough being home...and it's only been a day.
Sometimes I wish I was the problem child. I feel super neglected and I don't know... just really worthless when I'm home. My brother doesn't treat me well... at all and it hurts me so much because I try so hard to "kill him with kindness". My parents have always put their constant focus on him and I've just kind of been ignored when he's acting up. I know that I don't need attention or anything, but sometimes I would like to just sit down and talk to my parents or just like to hang out with my family without my brother having an outburst and ruining everything. I'm hurting so much trying not to be selfish. I just keep praying things will get better. They have to... right?
Today it went too far. I'm worried. Please pray.